Birthday???

Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to Kevin,
Happy Birthday to me......


first of all i would like to thank you to all who wishes me a birthday wishes....i really appreciate it alot and u guys/girls wishe me a Happy Birthday thank you once again you know who you are...


talkig about this Birthday "thingy" for me does it worth to have such party and presents as for me i do enjoy my birthday with together with friends and all that but i prefereably to be alone or at place with is a nice view or nice environment.....

some say i am sot sot (crazy) but actually to think to that i am not actually it is just my time and nature and think i am born in this world with a main purpose which need to be aim with a great determination and strength..

for about wishes?.... birthday wishes i always wishes the same thing i wish myself a Happy Birthday...

so that is me ya i dun have that much to have to say coz i am in a bad condition as i know seeking for the truth

cheers guy/girls

again i say thank you so much for the birthday wishes

The fresh air that i breath on Sunday......

above: the sky is blue and the cloud is white...

shockingly i went to the beach on sunday and discover that it was a great evening to hang around and it was a clear blue sunday...welll not that clear blue lah but then it is just nice there....sitting down on the sand and looking at the waves and enjoying the sea breeze and it was a nice feeling towards the mind soul and body...



below the trees...




hmmm...about this picture is that when i keep looking at it as the sea breeze pass through this tree it create a nice sound and makes me think why can't i move on in what i have to pursue and plant every knowledge that i know and let it grow and grow to know so much and to experience it well al i can see is that this is all God's creation and created in his own unique ways and all of His unique ways has a purpose

well that is a Food For Thought for me....

and i am gratefull i am living in this world..

cheers and happy ready...
Kev

What a day!!!!

hmmm....... i am not sure how to put this....

on saturday night actually went to attend the best so far gathering i have ever been which organise and planned by the well renowned Makanmaniacs.com

all is that sorry guys if i appear late....as usual when arive late i dun expect to eat tho coz i am late lah but then the surroundings and the people is so lively....

but then to the extend that time i was kinda not in a mood but the heck is that i like to see people having fun and that is what is matter and it makes me feel like i am home in miri after working in a hectic office and dirty environment....

so then partly attending there is a freebies haha and i kinda like alot which is a mug fill with sweet....awwww....how sweet of them to sweet give sweet hahaha.....

anyways i really appreciate it alot guys although i appear late and not to have the chance to eat together with u all....but hey....i did have fun too.....

looking at you all karaoke with the nice and sweet voice....ehemmmm....

oh well if i have a wine here i would like to make a toast to makammaniacs.com comittee for making this possible and a successful gathering and i really wish looking forward in future gathering.... CHEERS!!

well if u all wanna know look this up www.makanmaniacs.com

ok that is all guys
ciao
kev

Only God Know's Why........

okay.....here goes but i am not sure whether i am tlaking crap again...

so anyway what i have found myself sometimes being lonely and sometimes being ignored by everybody but anyway all i can say only God knows why coz he is the only person that who know me so well and know my feeling also

have you ever thought in life...why are you the only one that see the world in ur own eyes but to see the world is only in where you are right now??
and sometimes why are you born in this world at this place and at this time??
mostly this is where is all my wonders thinking that we all have reason and a purpose to live in my lovely hometown MIRI!!! hahahhaa....

a for me living in miri and born in this loving and humble family it makes me more to feel and stay at home, it was a great experience to stay in a warm and comfortable environment.....other than being a rich also it doesnt make a difference...

another wonder....why there are rich people must or have to get a fancy car and a fancy house? i wonder only God knows why.... for me into life we all need money well can say that is our daily needs to survive through out our life spenditure on this earth

so as i can say as i am a christian i admit myself also that i am nt that holy also even if i got go to church every week and read God's Manual Book (pm or comment me what is mean by God's manual book) think that i am a holy person.....mann!! we are not that perfect wat... am i rite???..... so living in this world is not that bad at all

coz in life we're going to have lots of ups and downs and through heartbreak and pain all in our life so eventhough i do experience it all and i really do cherish all the moment of what happen in many ways....

for some of us we do have feelings also....it could be all the mixture of feelings that we feel....happy, sad, etc....some to the extend also people tooo happy till can go lucky...welll that is some pharases that we humans wan to be rite?

so as for me how do i feel rite now?? it is all a mixture of feelings that i am having rite now.....hahahaha.....

oh yes... another part is that why must we bring our feelings from home to a working place and effect anybody for example ure feelig unhappy then you go to work then BAM!!! see for example a scenario


Mr. A : Hi, good morning mr.b?
Mr. B : yea yea...
Mr. A : Wassup with u? is there anything wrong?
Mr. B : hey....does it really matter to you if u ask me what happen to me if i'm fcking dead would care?

Mr. A : ok.....(walks away)


so as you can see also this kind of also can exist ah?? well.... i do experience it anyway so for me lah the best way i walk away and dun care anybody at all
so right now i have my solitary moment for a week and all this give me a thought and think back what did i miss or what did i mess up anything sometimes thinking of this i have all of misture feelings and plus i do entertain myself...

so being lonely its kinda ok with me.....coz maybe i can feel like i am being accompany....so many among the years since schooling since little till to day i have a handful frieds which some can cherish friendship but then just drop it and gone with the wind some also last only a few hours then dissappear in to thin air....or when i do have new friends some of them may thought that i may fall for them and i don't alrite?? i like to get closer coz to know u all significantly......

well for me i cannot take the big pressure of a friends leaving or anything coz its like someone hating me so much....


oh welll...i can go this on and on and it is unstopable so can say this is all i can say for now coz i am depressed rite now....ok guys thanx for your time reading and please do understand me as for me i try to understand my own feeling i also not sure to trust myself welll as my topic says Only God knows why.....



cya ciao
sincere kev

Goshh!!! Tag by carine......

hoho....been tag by ms.carine wait ya i find another topic then i tag u back blek!! :P

ok guys and girls ur next!!!

Rules :

1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tag back...or else i going to stab your back!!!


1. how tosay oh......my habit is that i currently dont like is that daydreaming sometimes can go for hours!!! goodness....

2. about myself is that i am a very V.E.R.R.Y simple guy to simple also as if like i am natural at it.

3. when come eating this is partly one of me haha put another leg on another chair or own my own chair hahaha....as long 1 leg is up then eat comfortable....

4. when i sleep my sleeping can be the longest so an alarm is to be aqquire in order to wake up from the La La Land.. ;P

5. cleanliness..... hmmm.... i dunno how to say about that but i do like to clean my own room and so call renting room it is a little clean coz it is a little cramp haha.. but i do clean myself alot lah that is the most important..rite?

6. sleeping i am not sure ler...whether i do snore that loud but according to my sister say i do snore loud so i guess i take that as a yes

7.as for me i kinda hate crowdy places coz of 1. it is hard to get a parking if not have to queue a long time so i kinda have an impatient kind just a tiny bit

8.Alcohol.....can say i do consume it also but when come to family or friends gathering i do hahaha so i folow moon so some say once in a blue moon

9.entertainment...... as for me i do for entertainment i do download songs and watching tv if not talking or having a chat with my gf and some friends so what else can i do?? oh yea.....driving in town as a little leisure

10. boringness...... this is the one part that it is always with me all along since i was a little boy...boringness....for me i never hang out with or spend time with myself my gf and my friends so kida i am a boring type of person...

11. worst thing happen.....well for me the worst things happen to me when i was a little boy and was toooo...naughty palyig around the construction area(housing area)
when i jump from the window and i got a nail poking under my foot and it is quite deep so yea yea u know i ran for help hahaha....

12. habits.....well if i tell you all i thinnk i bocor rahsia liao so what the heck i dun keep secret about myself ok here goes i do sometimes bite my nails hahahaha that is my bad habit... :P

13. peter pan syndrome.......oh ya i got this from my gf saying this to me and actually i do admit it myself like to forgot things easily....that is me

14. facts....about this hmmm....i tell you all something about facts....life it just simple and unique we all have out own descriptive thinking and thoughts all this any intention that we do is all we do it is unintentionaly so i what i only do is just to forgive and forget

15. last and but not least........ attire(appearance)...i do like to look simple and nice and neat looking about me...but not to the extend like wearing ah pek style lah but i will wear that when at home haha another rahsia terbocor....see nice or not i tell u all my secret?


p/s...sorry for the late tag ya carine hehehe...actually wana send u back but then i kena stab later...hahaha

You have been tagged:
(Those who read my blog)
1. darleenxixi
2. Lilian
3. KNK
4. Huilee

i cant think of more people lah
so this is my list

haahaha
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Unknowingly.......

well.....wana say sorry if i blog a little bit late but seems lately my feelings had been to many ups and downs so been trying and tackling this kind of emotion of being in a yes or no world...

as for this world is full of crap and what can i say coz i have been living in this world for 27 years..... do i care most? i might can say y should i born into this world but all i can say thank you to my mom who give birth to me and bring me to this world as in a healthy person....

but sadly my surroundings had been doing this to me oftenly....most of the time i am blaming myself for doing all the good things to all my friends and to my gf also i am sorry if i hurt you all...but i am trying to make things as normal and i am trying to blend in like water with water not like water with oil.....

how to say this.........i am like a pendulum and a scale in my life for an instance a pendulum if i m close to my friends and the others get far but when i think my other side friends is far i ty to gather to gather so the other side goes further and it repeats and repeat.......

true mayb true am i an optimistic person??? hmmm....how to define that??.. what i know from it i do expect things and put things to my expectations and it says it goes with my feelings also so some people see mayb that is y i am loosing them but no one dares to come over to me and tell me......

i can't really tell who am i right now or am i the real person or not....sometimes if a little of telling and saying infront of me i would be appreciated coz in people eye can see whether it is the real person or not....

it is true also an advised from my good friend say we cannot tell anybody on how we are coz mostly if not mostly all of us is wearing a mask to hide our real self and that makes me think back why am i like this...

right now i am talking in this blog here i am not sure i am talking the correct way, not making sense or making up stories or talking crap...

right now lately i have working in brunei here working of coz have many pressures and all sort type of stress.... and which i am trying to handle it as it would affect my feelings and also my surroundings so which i am trying to find a stress reliever or somewhere to release my stress so of coz many of my frens will say come and hang out.....well it is a partially hangover so then i went back home to take a big bottle of beer and continue hahahha.... just to forget things.....

lately i have trying or start to drink alot...so can say i think i am talking crap
i dunno how to make people happy all i can say is that i like gatherings with all of you coz i wan to make a friendship bonding...coz i tend to loose my friends so easily and thinking of it i also dunno what did went wrong and i keep on saying i can find new friends so am i a selfish person? yea you could say that......

well till then another day another explanation coz mayb rite now i am talking crap here

so to all my friends i am sorry if i make u all hurt and to my gf i am so sorry if i were hurt you so badly

thanx..... Kev

A nice song for My bie bie

here is a song for you bie bie love this sing



enjoy.....
and here is the lyrics if bie bie sing along :)

"You And I Both"

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now,
Oh love, no
You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore, mmm...
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have to go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, out of words.

My quotes for life

1.All men have a sweetness in their life. That is what helps them go on. It is towards that they turn when they feel too worn out.

2. Gratefulness is the key to a happy life that we hold in my hands, because if we are not grateful, then no matter how much we have we will not be happy -- because we will always want to have something else or something more.

3.Time is a companion that goes with us on a journey. It reminds us to cherish each moment, because it will never come again. What we leave behind is not as important as how we have lived.

4.My candle burns at both its ends;
It will not last the night;
But oh, my foes, and oh, my friends --
It gives a lovely light.

here are some quotes that reflect my life as a person and i m sorry ya if i really offended you all guys

happy reading cheers!!

Tag by Lilian...

1. What's your most favourite colour?
- Blue

2. Who is the most important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
- Family & My Bie Bie

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
- No...gila kah

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
- Yes...i guess

5. How many babies you want?
- not sure coz i m not a father yet

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- Yes and it always happens and it really happens

7. What is your goal for this year?
- Another holiday before end of December

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
- Yes

9. What's a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u? (List 10)
- Caring
Understanding
Respect each other
Shopping together with me
Sincere
eat together
laugh together
Trust me
being there for me
Go church together with me

10.What are you really afraid of?
- well...i dun afraid of anything i only fear GOD

11. What is your bad habit?
- Lose patience n get angry easily

12. What's your opinion with Distance relationship?
- i dun think it is nice la it is better see than distance but if under circumstances faith will be the answer

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- YES...of coz without them what would i be untill today

14. What does flying means to you?
- ehh..... i got wings meh? hmmm....

15. What do you crave for the most currently?
- Chocolates

16. Are you single/relationship?
- I'm not sure...haha

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
- caring, friendly and go!! KFC!! (u know what i mean)

18.What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
- hanging out with friends and being alone

19. What is the worst case scenario happen to you in your life?
- being push down alot..

20. define yourself?
- ugly person and i m an invalidator

Instructions: Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 5 people. List them out at the end of the post.Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

Tagged :
Carine (TAG)
Adelie miao miao
Darleenxixi